Today was my first day back to school. I'm not going to lie and pretend that it was wonderful, because it wasn't.
I was put in a class where I have no friends. Nobody with whom I can gossip with about the teachers, nobody whom I can rush to when we are assigned group projects.
My friends are all in classes - together.
Without me.
So frankly, it sucks.
BUT, after madly trying to petition to change classes, I decided to be open-minded about the whole situation. Because it may not work out the way I want it to. And I can't just run away from people because they already know each other, but they don't know me.
And after all, the magic mostly happens when you're put out of your comfort zone.
I'm going to be strong, because I've realized that this is not a big deal and it's just what a billion other teens are going through right now: change.
And I know that so many good things are coming. I can feel it.
It's almost time to say bye-bye to summer... so here's a recap of my blogging:
July: Summer
The Absolute Best Carrot Cake Ever
"Fill your house with stacks of BOOKS, in all the crannies and all the nooks!"
Paris, me voici!
In which I explain my roots
Paris, oh beautiful Paris
August: Da Vinci da veggie :)
2 ingredient ice cream: Bananas and Peanut Butter.
My first camp experience
Climb every mountain, follow every stream...
A hiking week in pictures
September: DIY Necklace Holder
Hope you enjoyed all my posts!
oh darling Carmen, first days in new places, be they classrooms, schools, offices or neighbourhoods are not easy. You have done the absolute right thing my darling brave one, you have opened you heart and mind to the possibilities. This is the only way forward and with this approach, you will make new connections and fully appreciate your friends at the break times. Love you and sending you millions of hugs for you and the new people who will discover your wonderful-ness (not a word but so appropriate for you Carmen!)
ReplyDeleteOh, thank you so much Malini! I promise you just made me feel so loved :)
DeleteYou are pretty brave to be writing so honestly and beautifully about this. My 16 year old cried the whole first week of school when she was 14 because she felt no one *knew* her. Poor Declan is going through something similar this year where all his friends are in another class and he is with a bunch of trouble-makers.
ReplyDeleteYou are so right ~ good things are coming!! The good things are probably already here, waiting for you to meet and greet them. xoxoxoxoxo ~ Jessica
I just need to remember whenever I start feeling down that I'm not the only one, as you pointed out. I will remember what you said!
DeleteHola Carmen,
ReplyDeleteYour blog is fun and insightful. How wonderful that you are so aware of life around you. Keep paying attention to details, and writing.
Would you like to be in touch with young people your age who live in Uruguay? Let me know. I sometimes work with the Anglo School locally. I think they would really enjoy your blog.
Best regards,
Susan Joyce
Hi Susan,
DeleteI would love to be in touch with teens in Uruguay! I will message you my e-mail on Facebook.
Thanks a million!
I would be intimidated to be in a new class with no friends...but you've done that before and found great friends and stretched and grown. I love how open you are to new experiences and the good in the world. Big hugs and lots of love to you, Carm!
ReplyDeleteYour comments mean so much to me, thank you! Being open to new experiences is one of the things I've always held on to... It's just a little difficult sometimes, I guess.
Deleteyeah none of my friends are in my class but at least our timetables aren't too different so i can see them after school and at breaks :P
ReplyDeleteThat's good :) I also see my friends in the halls and at lunch.
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